Saturday, May 28, 2011

May 26

Got to sleep in for a bit, yess! And talked to my boyfriend for a quick bit before class. He dropped some pretty scary news on me about a friend and it kind of stressed me out for the rest of the day. I took the bus and literally just sat there in a fog about it, nearly missing my bus stop!

I went to class, but really only because I hadn't gone last week and because I wanted to make sure to attend the last two so I could fill out the course evaluation. But I learned in class that they filled it out the week before! Damnit! That was the only reason I came!! Now I can't say all that I wanted to about this class that I hated! Ugh. The professor called me out about my emailed question - great, now he knows who I am (I guess I didn't stand a chance blending in as the only white girl). The rest of class I was totally stressed out and couldn't concentrate. I am stressed about money and how much work I have to do and how unproductive last night seemed and my boyfriend's friend and finally, I invited my boyfriend to my cousin's wedding and even though he has been begging me for months to go, he said NO! I felt so hurt that I had finally decided I wanted him there and he rejected me. I know my family can be intense, so I guess that's why, but I thought he was different. I tried to make myself feel OK about it, convincing myself of this, that and the other thing, but I couldn't shake it. It wasn't until I looked at the email again at the bus stop on the way home and scrolled down to see that he was kidding and of course he wanted to come. PHEW! That took some pressure off my day. A lot, in fact.

Then I went home and got to working on my research proposal. I spent all evening researching articles and reading all about it, feeling pretty productive and educated on the topic!! But I still hadn't really written anything down. Ugh oh well. It's the first step!

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