June 12

Set my alarm and helped Jillian move some of her stuff next door to Matt's house for storage. She wasn't able to get ahold of him to tell him we were coming, but she assumed the door would be unlocked. It wasn't! We found a key, but it didn't fit, so we ended up having to leave the stuff by the door. Hopefully she'll tell him later and he'll be nice enough to move it inside. I still have two suitcases that I need to take over there who knows when! =( Guess I'll have to get his email and coordinate that. Ack. Then, I said goodbye to Jillian and she took off for the airport. Just me left!!! =( I closed up the living room and kitchen, since it will soon be someone elses. It feels weird to have someone else come live in what was MY space like right in front of me. I've really been dreading this next week because I'll be here alone, and have to go upstairs to Michael's area for everything. Also feels weird not to reap the benefits of cleaning! haha I feel like I just cleaned all day yesterday and now I have to use the most unclean place ever.

Anyway, I tried to go back to sleep, but pretty soon after, Michael came downstairs and started banging around. He was hard at work, painting the bathroom. He said he couldn't find the color of Lina's room, so he decided to paint the bathroom with this color instead. I didn't want to tell him that the light gray in Lina's room has been completely used up. I'll just play dumb if he asks because I wasn't around when they did any of that. His problem. He is really the worst at time-management. He is gone for work 80% of the time, so he doesn't have time to buy fresh groceries or clean his house. He doesn't have time to get things done around the house in time for this woman to move in, so instead he rushes to do it on her move-in day. Now her wall is going to smell like fresh paint when she moves in, plus, it's going to be a very sloppy paint job, because he is rushing to get it taken care of. Thanks for never doing ANYTHING while we lived there!! =(

I went upstairs to make some breakfast and was so disgusted by everything that I didn't spend long up there. My biggest pet peeve is dirty dishes, especially when you have a dishwasher, which is funny because I was terrible about it when I was a kid. I just don't see how someone with a dishwasher lets things pile up so badly (but again, we're dealing with some time management issues)... Anyway, I cleaned a pan so I could use it, then made some eggs. I don't even want my stuff touching his. Everything was sticky... Then I cleaned the dishes I used (because the dishwasher was full) and retreated back downstairs.

Then, I studied for a bit, but talked to my boyfriend and we fought again. Awesome. Basically, I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. So, I ended up feeling like I'm totally undeserving of a boyfriend at all and further just felt incredibly alone since I can't even go cry to Jillian... haha I miss her already, we grew pretty close and I really enjoyed our relationship. Sure, we will still be friends, but it will never be the same. It's just one of those things... We won't see each other as much and it's likely that we'll just grow apart with all the distractions back home. Even Lina, who I thought would be a lifelong friend, is off doing other stuff and I never see her much anymore. I feel like I came so far and now suddenly I'm back to the beginning. Still not a scrap of furniture to my name, moving to a new place with no network, no job, etc. It's going to be pretty hard.

For the rest of the day, I studied, walked to Rosalie for some take-out, and watched a movie. Pretty standard stuff.