Saturday! Slept in because I was up late, then talked to my boyfriend for a while. I tried to edit my group paper, which was only about 2,500 words, but it took me all day because I was distracted by my boyfriend. Oh well. Then in the early evening, Jillian and I decided to go to the grocery store. All of the grocery stores around here close so early!! 5 or 7pm on Saturday! What! I'm used to them being open til 10pm at the VERY earliest, but usually midnight or later... We got back and made some dinner and had a couple drinks, which probably wasn't the best idea because then I did NOT want to go back to studying!
Instead, I procrastinated and then stumbled across a video of my sister, which of course brought back all of the pain of missing her. It was like, Oh yea. You had almost forgotten, but it's still RIGHT THERE. Anyway, so after crying about that for a while, I decided to be productive and write about that. Got about 1,000 words written for that, so that's good. We'll see how far I get with that or if I ever feel like it will be complete. It's so hard to just get the background of it out. Oh and then, I read in some old writing from 2008 that I was frustrated about my boyfriend at the time. I was impatient, thinking that I didn't want to wait for us to be together 7-10 years before getting married and that he wouldn't be ready for at least another ~4 years. I looked at the date in the corner of my computer screen - 2011. It has almost been 4 years... Haha How silly of me to think that 4 years would be too long. These past few have flown by, and I'm still nowhere near marriage. I've learned so much. If only you knew then, what you know now... But I guess it wouldn't change much. And I wouldn't have learned as much without everything that happened. So, of course I got a little sad about that (Can't have one without the other; since it happened at the same time, I always go through the pain of both. They are intrinsically tangled).
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